ink

i'll take this ink from my arms, and write your name. . . .

m a n d y

"as your voice faces"

somebody, please tell me

what am i supposed to do?

you left and i'm here alone

thinking that i hear your voice

but it's somebody else

why did you go?

don't leave me, please

i beg you, God,

tonight bring me peace

look!!

if you would look in my eyes,

you would see,

i'm screaming inside

that

i'm sorry!!

tried

you tried to love me..

.

at least i think you did..

.

but, you couldn't hold on....

anything

i would give anything to

make it better

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

i would give anything to

make you see

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

i would give anything to

make you realize . .

you're not helping yourself by hurting me

wanted it to be

*by: sister hazel

it's your world
and i was just someone in it
i never wanted to be your problem

and it's your life
and i just wanted to see you live it
be the one to help you solve 'em

i wanted -- i wanted it to be
i wanted -- i wanted it to be -- yeah

never claimed to be no saviour
never claimed to be no saint
i'm just another tool who tried to love you

saw the ones before me
then i saw the one who took my place
took a lot of time just to get on by you

it's your world
and i was just someone in it
i never wanted to be your problem

how?

HOW

COULD

I

LET

THIS

SLIP

AWAY??

wanted

i wanted it

to last

- -

i wanted to grow old

- -

- but -

life got in the way

maybe

maybe i'm a girl

. .

maybe i'm a lonely girl

in the middle of something

that she doesn't really

understand

. .

maybe i'm a girl

. .

and maybe you're the only one

who could ever help me

understand

i do

i used to not know

what people meant

when they said

they loved someone

and hated them

at the same time

- - - - - - - - - -

-NOW I DO

severed

a severed friendship

is like an amputation

- - - -

you survive,

but there's less of you

kill

stab me to death

. .

kill me

. .

i won't survive

blood

why don't you

bleed when i

cut you?

stop

you are always

in my heart

. . . .

so let my heart stop

maybe..

if i died . . . .

would

you

even

know??

- - - -

just a few pills

a couple deep cuts

one giant leap . .

maybe it's my time to go . .

forever

forever forgotten

~

forever hurt

~

you left me

forever

bro ken

how much?

how much of my

sliced skin do you want??

- -

how many gallons

of my blood??

tears = memories

all the tears

that roll

down my cheeks

. .

they are all

memories

. .

of

you . .

could i?

if i close

my eyes forever..

..

would it ease

the pain??

..

..

could i breathe again??

breathe

it hurts

to breathe

~

~because~

~

every breath

proves that

i can live

without you

~

and, obviously,

i can't

alone

sitting here

. .

alone

. . . .

practicing the words

i'll never say to you

beauty & the beast

i wish i could tell you why....

why my arms turned from beauty to beast

we have both cried for this mess

i dream of my death-

and you know this

for all these scars over me-

you will never know why-

why are they there in the first place?

you will never understand

what all these scars are for

THEY ARE ALL FOR YOU

were

i

wasn't

ready

for

what

happened

you

were

my

BEST

FRIEND

leave

i can leave you alone

BUT

i'll never leave you

1 000

a thousand words

would not bring you back

i know because i've tried

neither would a thousand tears

i know because i've cried

I Miss You

Mandy,

i miss you so much
i don't know what to do
i'm broken, shattered, ripped apart,
my heart's been torn in two

nothing's the same without you
my world is hard, and dark, and cold
i'm reaching out, but nothing's there
i need a hand to hold

i forget how to act
i forget how to be
i forget what to do
i forget what is me

i don't know what is normal
i don't know what to say
i don't know how to breath
can't you show me the way?

my life is consumed
by depression and drugs
but that's not the answer
i need kisses and hugs

i need to be forgiven
i can't carry this anymore
it's getting too heavy and weighing me down
i'm falling to the floor

won't you help me up?
won't you take the other side?
won't you put me back together?
won't you show me where to hide?

i don't know where to go
i don't know what to do
i can't stand on my own
please, let me lean on you

love,
ALWAYS,
kathryn

sorry

you could

slit my throat

and with my final,

gasping breath,

i'd apologize..

for bleeding

on your shirt

hands

your hands are

drenched in

blood....

because you just

killed what's

left of me

stop

you are

always

in my heart

. .

so let my

heart

s t o p

going under

now i will tell you

what i've done for you

50 000 tears i've cried

screaming, deceiving

and bleeding for you

and you still won't hear me

don't want your hand this time

i'll save myself

maybe i'll wake up for once

not tormented

daily defeated by you

just when i thought

i'd reached the bottom

i'm dying again

It's Your Fault

*by: Jana Savoie & Kathryn Small

look into my eyes
see the pain?
it's your fault

listen to my voice
hear the pain?
it's your fault

lick my salty tears
taste the pain?
it's your fault

run your fingers over the scars
feel the pain?
it's your fault

inhale my burning flesh
smell the pain?
it's your fault

look down at my arms
see the pain?
it's your fault

can you see my self-inflicted attempts to drown out the hurt?
-pay attention

can you hear the fractured beat of my wounded heart?
-pay attention

can you feel the awful sting of the careless, hurtful words?
it's like pouring salt into a freshly opened gash

pay close attention

know the pain

it's entirely your fault

Break Myself

*by: something corporate

i'm on fire
and the day is feeling hopeless
you'de see my burning
but the burning's turning smokeless
soon i won't feel at all
no

it's electric
the neon hurt inside your phone call
the layered sadness
and the madness it revolves
bringing down the walls
where you found her

well, i'm willing to break myself
to shake this hell
from everything i touch
i'm willing to bleed for days my....
reds and grays
so you don't hurt so much

and now i'm static
as your sky is turning
purple and grey
i'm learning that the further that i crawl
the farther that i fall
is that ok?
no

and you're in pieces
as your world becomes a rainstorm
you've got no shelter
i'm a thousand miles away
if you survive the day
you say you're leaving
you say you're leaving

never again will we fire this gun
no, never again, you're the only one
no, never again, but you're already gone

i'm willing to break myself
i am not afraid

i am not afraid..

come back

"i fight my fears,

by telling myself

that you'll be back."

-message in a bottle

crying

if you're going to make me cry....

at least be there, to wipe the tears

Saints and Sailors

*by: Dashboard Confessional

this is where i say,
"i've had enough"
no one should ever feel
the way that i feel now

a walking open wound
a trophy display of bruises
and i don't believe
that i'm getting any better
any better

waiting here with hopes
the phone will ring
and i'm thinking awful things
pretty sure that few would notice
and this apartment
is starving for an argument
anything at all
to break this silence

wandering this house
like i've never wanted out
and this is about as social
as i get now

and i'm throwing away
the letters that i am writing you
cause they would never do
i would never do
never

don't be a liar
don't say that everything's working
when everything's broken

you smile like a saint
but you curse like a sailor
and your eyes say the jokes on me

well, i'm not laughing
you're not leaving
but, who do i think i am kidding?
i'm the only one
locked in this cell

"catch me"

"catch me as i fall"

say you're here and it's all over now

speaking into the atmosphere

no one's here and i fall into myself

this truth drives me into madness

Here With Me

*by: Michelle Branch

it's been a long, long time
since i looked into the mirror
i guess that i was blind
now my reflection's getting clearer
now that you're gone
things will never be the same again

there's not a minute that goes by
every hour of every day
you're such a part of me
but you just pulled away
well, i'm not the same girl
you used to know
i wish i said the words
i never showed

i know you had to go away
i died just a little
and i feel it now
you're the one i need
i believe that i would
cry just a little
just to have you back now
here with me
here with me

you know that silence is loud
when all you hear is your heart
and i wanted so badly
just to be a part
of something strong and true
but i was scared
and left it all behind

and i'm asking
and i'm wanting
you to come back to me
please?

i will never forget
that look upon your face
how you turned away
and left without a trace
but i understand
that you did what you had to do

Good Bye

good bye

to you

good bye

to everything i thought i knew

letting go....

and i prayed

and i cried

and because i love you so

i'm letting go..

and i laughed

and i cried

and how it hurts me so

to let you go..

so i pray

and i cry

and the hardest part of life

is letting go..

the hardest part of living

is giving back what we've been given

each gift from God

is only yours and mine

for a time

Going Down In Flames

*by: three doors down

don't tell me what to think
cause i dont care this time
don't tell me what to believe
cause you won't be there

to catch me when i fall
but you'll need me
when i'm not here at all
miss me when i'm gone
again

i'm going down in flames
i'm falling into this again
i'm going down in flames
i'm falling into this again

don't tell me how life is
cause i don't really wanna know
don't tell me how this game ends
cause we'll just see how it goes

now i'm all the way down here
i'm falling all the way
all the way down here
i'm falling again now

i'm falling down
i'm falling down
going down in flames
falling into this gagin
going down in flames
falling into this again
all the way down here
i'm falling all the way
all the way down here now
i'm falling again now

I Survived You

*by: Clay Aiken

i see the picture clearer now
the fog has lifted
what you tried to pull over my eyes was clever
yeah, you're gifted
but you forgot to dot some i's and cross some t's
along the way

i'm better now, despite you
i'm stronger these days
stronger

i survived the crash
i survived the burn
i survived the worst, ya
but i learned
i survived the lies
survived the blues
it almost killed me
but i survived the truth
and when you wrote me off like i was doomed
yeah, i survived you

i can look in the mirror now
it's been a slow awakening
haunted by a heart full of you
i couldn't help mistaking

good luck, i wish you well

yeah, i survived you....

this heart's been torn in two
cut and bruised with too many bitter endings
i'll be damned if i have thoughts of you
raining on my new beginning

i survived the crash
i survived the burn
i survived the worst, yeah
but i learned
i survived the lies
i survived the blues
it almost killed me
but i survived the truth
and when you wrote me off like i was doomed
yeah, i survived you

truth

i had to let you know the TRUTH

i'm so sorry....

please..

you gave me forgiveness

but you could not forget

i should never have told you

what i'll live to regret

the truth lies between us

and i can't take it back

it's too late for lyin' now

no, it's too late for that

here i am- there you are

we're so far apart

can't we just start all over again??

fire

will you fight the fire?

as i burn?

??

what do you do

when the only

one who can stop

your tears, is the

one who made

you cry??