breathe

it hurts to breathe

because every breath

proves that i can live without you

. .

and,

obviously,

i can't

cannot

the painter cannot see without eyes

. .

the musician cannot hear without ears

. .

and i cannot love without the heart you stole from me

why?

why does the sun go on shining?

why does the sea rush to shore?

don't they know

it's the end of the world?

cause you don't love me anymore

. . . . . . . .

why do the birds go on singing?

why do these eyes of mine cry?

don't they know

it's the end of the world?

it ended when you said good-bye

who?

who will i run to??

who will i turn to??

now that you've left me behind,

who will dry my tears??

not asleep

i keep thinking

this is all just a

bad dream. . . .

and any minute now,

i'm sure to wake up

screaming. .

. .

but then i realize

I AM NOT ASLEEP

. .

things will never be ok

. .

'happily ever after' doesn't

happen in real life

THIS IS 4 KYLE

how come you have

enough time to go out

and make other people

fall in love with you,

but you don't have

enough time to pay

attention to the one

who already does??

THIS IS 4 KYLE

. . . . . . . .

-> i found this on the internet

last night. including that last line.

i thought of you immediately and

knew you had to read it.

spend some time with him, do something fun,

that boy loves you A LOT.

give him a hug for me, k??

thanks....

how is that fair??

i loved you

more than myself

but since you've left me

i hate myself

more than you

. .

how is that fair??

6 feet under

i'd like to take a gun

and put it to my head

then pull the trigger

so i'd be dead

then i'd never have to worry

never have to feel the pain

of waiting for a sorry

that won't ever come

death is like a darkness

then again, it's my only light

and i'd go without a fight

because 6 feet under seems peaceful

where my feelings wouldn't matter

(not like they do anyway..)

and under the ground

is where i'll stay

never to bother you again

don't

fearful tears are running down

. .

the pain you've laid, don't speak a sound

. .

don't take my heart, away from me

. .

and they think i fell down

again

madness

"catch me as i fall"

say you're here, and it's all over now..

. .

speaking into the atmosphere

no one's here and i fall into myself

this truth drives me into madness

nowhere

crying will wash the blood

off my torn wrists

. .

i've bruised and bled for you,

and still, it gets me nowhere

listen

are you listening?

. .

can you hear me??

. .

have you forgotten???

blame

i am the only one

to blame for this . . . .

. .

somehow it all adds up the same

foolish

so cut below the surface

and try hard not to notice

that i could be so foolish

thinking i'm alright

i've got no one to hold me

i've got no one to carry

everything inside of me

that i won't let them see

I need you now

Mandy, i need you now
please take me by the hand
stand by me in my hour of need
take time to understand

take my hand, please Mandy
and lead me from this place
chase away my doubts and fears
wipe the tears from off my face

Mandy, i cannot stand alone
i need your hand to hold
the warmth of your gentle touch
in my world that's grown so cold

please, be a friend to me
and hold me day by day
cause with your loving hand in mine
i know we'll find the way

*by: Becky Turner

Bottled

Bottled up inside
are the words i never said
the feelings that i hide
the lines you never read

you can see it in my eyes
read it on my face
trapped inside are lies
of a past i can't replace

with memories that linger
won't seem to go away
why can't i be happier?
today's a brand new day

yesterdays are over
even though the hurting's not
nothing lasts forever
i must cherish what i've got

don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won

the hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear overnight
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright

no more wishing for the past
it wasn't meant to be
it didn't seem to last
so i'll have to set you free

*by: Melissa Collette

change

"one minute there's a whole life

entwined with yours,

and the next, just a space

and scattered clues."