magic wand

i wish i could wave a wand

like you waved good-bye

and change the locks

on my heart

be my suicide

i feel so lost
i feel so alone
but i dont feel you
leading me home

i see the bad dreams
the long nightmares
what i dont see
are your caring stares

you've heard my laughter
you've heard my tears
but my silenced screams
you'll never hear

i'll be your friend
(i'll be Kyle's "other" mom)
(i'll clean your house)
(i'll do your groceries)
i'll stand by your side
you'll be my gun
my suicide

suicide

you dont understand me
even though you've tried
i thought that you might
so i let you inside
why couldn't you see?
why didn't you know?
how'd you take it all away?
when i never let it go?

would you tell me where i went wrong?
cause i'm sorry!
would you tell me how to fix it?
cause i'm so sorry!!
would you try to forgive me?
cause i'm just so sorry!!!

cause i dont want to keep screaming
when you cant hear me anyway
cause i dont want to keep trying
when you dont care anyway
cause i dont want to keep holding on
when you've already let go anyway

what would you do if i went away?
because of you
because of me
because of everything
because it's all too much
and i cant take it anymore

would you laugh?
would you cry?
would you come to my funeral?
would you be sorry?
would you care at all?

cause it's over

but i'm sorry

tell me

do me a favour

WOULD YOU TELL ME WHEN TO LET GO?

cause, i think i'm holding on

do me a favour,

WOULD YOU TELL ME WHICH WAY IS UP?

cause, i dont know how to quit

would you do it for me?
cause i'm playing for keeps..

hello

i'd like to say

HELLO

i'd like to say

I CARE

i'd like to let you know

that nothing here's the same with me

NOTHING HERE'S THE SAME

the price?

**I'VE PAID THE PRICE,**

**I'M STILL PAYING FOR IT EVERYDAY**

Good Bye

i know you don't love me
and i understand
i wish i could just hate you
but i know that i cant

i find myself wishing
as i sit here alone
that if i were to call you
you'de pick up the phone

but i know that you won't
and it just isn't fair
i only did what i did
because i really do care

i love you so much
that i'm letting you go
i will always love you
in more ways than you know

it would probably be better
if we'de never been such good friends
then this wouldn't hurt so much
for this to have to end

and so i pray to God
as i lie here and cry
that he'll keep and protect you
long after i've said good-bye

Mandy,

i was lost and you were found
i was alone and you came around

i was weak, but you were strong
you were right, and i was wrong

i was blind, but how you could see!
you saw what i couldnt, potential in me

when i was down, you pulled me through
and there's nothing i wouldn't do for you

you seemed to get me, when no-one understands
you came along, and took my hand

you dared to look, inside my mind
never knowing, what you'd find

it meant so much, to know you were there
i couldn't believe that you really did care

when none of the pieces seemed to fit
somehow you made sense of it

i really cant tell you how much it means
i think you came from one of my dreams

i would cry, but you would smile
and stay with me, for a while

you are always in my heart
the only light shining in the dark

more than anything, i wanted to fly
so you gave me your wings, and let me try

time held it's breath so i could see
and you began to set me free

i wanted a chance to let you know
just how much i loved you so

you meant so very much to me
forever friends i thought we'de be

for who you were, and all you do
mandy, i will always love you!


love,
ALWAYS,
kathryn

I Will Be There For You

*by: Jessica Andrews
** the song that i sang at Merriam. i meant each and every word that i said..

when i lost faith
you believed in me
when i stumbled
you were right there
for every act of love you've done
i owe you one

there were hard times
i know i survived
just because you
stayed by myside
with all i have, with all i am
i promise you all my life

whenever the road is too long
whenever the wind is too strong
wherever this journey may lead to
i will be there for you
i will be there for you

through sorrow
on the darkest night
when there's heartache
deep down inside
just like a prayer
you will be there
and i promise you all my life

whenever the road is too long
whenever the wind is too strong
wherever this journey may lead to
i will be there for you
i will be there for you

whenever the road is too long
whenever the wind is too strong
wherever this journey may lead to
i will be there for you
i will be there for you

i'll always be there....