i understand

i understand your decision

i really do

i understood it even at the time

. .

but that doesn't make it hurt any less

what i meant

what i really meant to say

is im sorry for the way i am

i never meant to be so cold

i know

i know

one day

you're gonna love me

like i've loved you

. .

i know

one day

you're gonna miss me

like i've missed you

. .

i know

one day

you're gonna want me back

but i won't want you anymore

finally

maybe

once you find out im dead

you'll finally realize

what you did to me

im sorry

im sorry that you know me

im polluting your "perfect" life

im sorry that you had to see

me struggle with the knife

im sorry i disgust you

with the blood running down my wrist

but dont worry, i wont be sorry anymore

for soon i will cease to exist

forget

i'm only hoping

that as time goes by,

you can forget....

what more??

it's all my fault

i'm sorry for everything

what more do you want from me??

if i died..

if i died,

would you cry or would you laugh??

if i died,

would you even care??

i think not....