i feel pain..

you've caused me so much hurt
even as i write this i feel pain
i cry my tears
and i bleed in vain

cant you see??

i'm sorry i can't be
everything you want me to be
can't you see it's hard enough
just admitting this is me??
. . . . . .
i'm sorry that i cry all night
i'm sorry that i worry
i'm sorry for what happened
can't you see i'm sorry??

never

i'm never gonna be good enough for you..

i can't pretend that i'm alright....

i miss..

i miss talking together

i miss calling on the phone

i miss the billion texts

i miss my second home

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

i miss our stupid jokes

i miss the things we used to do

i really miss your son

but, most of all, i just miss you

im sorry..

i'm sorry that i hurt you
it's something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through-
i wish that i could take it all away

i thought..

all along i thought you would be there

to let me know i'm not alone

but in fact that's exactly what i always was

and always will be

if only....

if only you still cared

i'm so tired of being alone

just wait

just wait

one day,

when you look at me

lying in my coffin

. . . .

the hardest part

will be seeing your name

carved into my arm

sick

my tears cry for you

my blood calls your name

my heart yearns for your love

but my soul is sick of this game

have you ever??

have you ever been in a situation

where the best thing you could do

was the hardest thing you've ever done?

. . . . . .

but you try to do what's right...?