Breathe

I see your face in my mind as I drive away

'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

People are people and sometimes we change our minds

But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

-

Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie

It's the kind of ending you don't really wanna see

'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down

Now I don't know what to be without you around

-

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

-

And I can't breathe

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to

-

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve

People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

-

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

-

And I can't breathe

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to

-

It's 2am, feeling like I just lost a friend

Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me

It's 2am, feeling like I just lost a friend

Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

-

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

-

I can't breathe

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to

-

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

"Boys Don't Cry"

What would you say to me?

If you could talk to me?

You could ask anything

I wouldn't lie

But you're okay with this

Damaging awkwardness

So I'll just play it safe

And keep it inside

-

I used to hold your hand

So tight there was no question

But now even when you're near

I've never felt so alone

-

So what would you say to me?

If you could talk to me?

You could ask anything

I wouldn't lie

But you're okay with this

Damaging awkwardness

So I'll just play it safe

And keep it inside

-

If you'd just stand beside me

I'd keep you in my life

Tell me how much you loved me

And I'll be just fine

-

Don't be

afraid of me

-

So what would you say to me?

If you could talk to me?

You could ask anything

I wouldn't lie

But you're okay with this

Damaging awkwardness

So I'll just play it safe

And keep it inside

I Need You Now

Picture perfect memories

Scattered all around the floor

Reaching for the phone cause, i can't fight it anymore

And i wonder if i ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time
~~

It's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now

Said i wouldn't come but i lost all control and i need you now

And i don't know how i can do without, i just need you now

~~

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And i wonder if i ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

~~

It's quarter after one, i'm a little drunk, and i need you now

Said i wouldn't call but i lost all control and i need you now

And i don't know how i can do without, i just need you now

~~

Yes i'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now

And i said i wouldn't call but i'm a little drunk and i need you now

And i don't know how i can do without, i just need you now

i just need you now

Happy Birthday

Hey,

I still think of you at this time of year- I can't help it.... I think of Kyle every Sept. 14th too.... I dunno, it's habit.... I can't believe how old he's gotten- I don't even think I'd recognize him. I haven't seen him since he was 9.... and boys change SO much during those years of their lives....

Anyway, I know I haven't put anything on here in a really long time. I'm going away (yet again....) and there's a song that makes me think of you every time I listen to it. I wanted to post it before I actually leave, cause I just might be able to quote it and mean every word by the time I get back, and well, just thought some warning might be nice....
I don't know if you ever read this or not, but it's the only way I can think of to communicate with you right now. I'm not interested in being hung up on or having letters returned to me in the mail....

So, yeah....
here goes nothing....

love you- always have, always will

Dying To Live Again
Hedley

Tired of always saying sorry

It's just another fighting story

And I can barely walk a straight line

I'm tired of learning life the hard way

I wish that being strong was easy

But I want it more this time

I was wrong. It's hard to say.

At least I learned from my mistakes

I would change everything

'cause I can't wait for the day

When finally I can say and you'll believe it

I can change and now I mean it

And I will fight for a way

To make up for the mess that I've been leaving

A second chance is all I'm needing and

Anything. I can do. Just to make it up to you

I would do anything

I'm dying to live again

I was such a fool to hurt you

'cause you're the one I always turn to

When I'm going out of my mind

I just bite the hand that feeds me

Instead of loving ones that need me

But I want it more this time

I was wrong. It's hard to say.

At least I learn from my mistakes

I would change everything

'cause I can't wait for the day

When finally I can say and you'll believe it

I can change and now I mean it

And I will fight for a way

To make up for the mess that I've been leaving

A second chance is all I'm needing and

Anything. I can do. Just to make it up to you

I would do anything

I'm dying to live again

I pray that you'll see what I've become

I would give it all away to right the wrongs I’ve done

I don't wanna fall for the same mistakes again

What's it going to take for this misery to end?

Anything. I can do. Just to make it up to you

I would change everything

'cause I can't wait for the day

When finally I can say and you'll believe it

I can change and now I mean it

And I will fight for a way

To make up for the mess that I've been leaving

A second chance is all I'm needing and

Anything. I can do. Just to make it up to you

I would do anything

I'm dying to live again

'cause I can't wait for the day

When finally I can say and you'll believe it

I can change and now I mean it

And I will fight for a way

To make up for the mess that I've been leaving

A second chance is all I'm needing and

Anything. I can do. Just to make it up to you

I would do anything

I'm dying to live again

Good Bye

ok, so, it's been a little while since i called you from chicago now.... and, you probably think that it was stupid. that i shouldn't have made the phone call, that it was just a last attempt at getting back what used to be the most important friendship i had ever had.
well, i knew that wasn't going to happen.
i actually did a role play on you, because i really needed closure on the whole situation, and i didn't think i could get it by actually talking to you. so i did it with someone else pretending to be you. that way i actually got to say what i needed to say, and it was all heard, and i got to process it with my case manager and my peers after, etc..
well, i was asked after the role play how i felt, and i replied "i wanna call her right now and actually say it all to her for real". Kate, (my case manager) told me to log that feeling and wait 24 hours. and, if i DID decide to make the call, to expect the worst. well, i logged it. i waited 24 hours. and by the next afternoon, i still felt all fired up and ready to confront you. i was ready to do it, and i thought i could handle whatever the outcome was. i was prepared to "expect the worst". only i thought "the worst" would be you hanging up on me and not letting me say anything at all. what actually happened, was MUCH worse. i was so fucking hurt when i hung up the phone.... i went straight to my room, which i wasn't even allowed in at that time, lay down on my bed with my headphones on, buried my face in my pillow and BAWLED.... like, really loud, gasping, sobs.. within minutes, i had a nurse in my room trying to figure out what was wrong with me.. i was given a whole smorgasbord of sedatives and tranquilizers (seroquel, clonazepam, ativan, and finally immovane) and i was forced out of my room, to "talk". Nurse Pat couldn't get much out of me, but Kate came out of her office, announcing that she'd "take over" and, i was taken into her office where i sat rocking and shaking and very close to a panic attack on the couch, trying to talk out what had happened....
she made one comment to me, which i realized, is truly a good thing. and, i am glad that i made that phone call now, for this one simple reason:
before it was made, i still loved you. ALOT. i couldn't hate you, and i knew that i wasn't capable of those kinds of feeling towards someone i had been so close to, previously. but, i was so angry after the phone call, i told Kate that i hated you.. i told everyone that i hated you, and that you were a selfish bitch. i didn't mean it of course, i don't hate you. but, what Kate pointed out to me, was that before i was uncapable of feeling that emotion, and through one phone call i was able to reunite myself with those feelings.
now, i don't hate you. hate is a very strong word, and i will never hate you. in fact, i will love you forever. there will always be a special place in my heart for you, and it can't be filled with anything else. i will definitely always love you. but, right now- i just don't like you. i don't like what you did. i don't like how you made me feel. i don't like what i did either, but i don't like how you reacted to it.. i don't like a whole lot of things.
so, i'm sorry. sorry for everything.
i don't plan on keeping up this website anymore, but if by some chance you have read any of it, i don't want you to think that i'm just giving up on you. i wanted you to have an explanation.

i love you
take care of yourself,
take care of Kyle,
and give him a hug for me

love,
kathrynn

let the blood drip

from my wounded heart

and i hope you know

it’s all because of you

The only reason I haven’t killed myself

is because of you....

- - - -

Im not going to give you the pleasure

of spitting on my grave.

It's not just the scars on my arms

- - - - - -

It hurts so much

because sometimes

I cut because of you

good bye

there's no
good

in

good bye

remember

remember..

the very person

who lifts you up

may let you fall again

leave me

i bleed my last tear

and it hurts

to know that you

would leave me here

dying

empty promises

my empty promises

led to our demise

and i could never tell you how i really feel

and for that i eternally apologize

* * * * * *

my empty promises

my empty promises

brought us to an end

i just hurt you and i never looked back

now i have no logic to defend

i'll be the giver and you'll be the taker

i guess that's how this one's gonna go

i'll be the giver and you'll be the taker

you've got me down on my knees and i proclaim

"all hail the heartbreaker"

later

i will sleep another day

i don't really need to anyway

whats the point when my dreams are

infected with words you used to say

* *

i will breathe in a moment

as long as i keep my distance

i wouldn't want to go messing anything up

tears

here's to the tears

you knew i'd cry

scream

i just wanna fucking scream my lungs out..

till my heart has no more air..

and i collapse right in front of you

to show you how much you've hurt me.

forever..

the pain doesn't go away..

my heart won't heal..

my mind won't stop thinking..

the memories are everywhere

the days are long

and the nights last forever....

i know

i miss you . . . .

but i know,

you don't care

i'm not

i'm not crying

because you don't love me

~ ~

i'm laughing

because i thought you could

do u get it????

would you get it

if i told you

that

i want you

and

i need you??

remember

remember me

and how you left me

dead inside

our end

last week i threw away your letters

i finally let go of our memories together

i just hope it was worth it

worth all the tears i shed

because i'm the one to blame

i'm the cause of our end

I'M SORRY!!

what else can i do??

i said i'm sorry, yeah, i'm sorry

i said i'm sorry, but what for??

if i hurt you, then i hate myself

don't want to hate myself, don't want to hurt you

why do you choose your pain??

if you only know how much i love you

i love you

sticks and stones

sticks and stones

are hard on bones

aimed with angry art

words can sting

like anything

but silence breaks the heart

not there

i'm scared

because i'm falling

and i know

you're not there

to catch me

Let Down

i told you i hated life

i told you i wanted to die

i told you no one cared

i told you no one was there

i told you all these feelings

i told you everything

~ ~

you let me down

life isn't fair

when the only person you need,

isn't really there.

that's when it hits you.

life just isn't fair.

your hand

i need a hand to hold..

not just any hand.... your hand

too

i never wanted to hurt you

i'm still not fully recovered

too scared to love

too dead to heal

too empty to feel

yet too broken to put back together

your words

drowning in a sea

of my own blood

caused by sharpened points

of your words

time heals?

whoever said

that time heals everything

lied

the longer i go on

without you

the worse off i am

Wish We Never Met

by: Kathleen Wilhoite

Disappointment stops by from time to time

to see how I'm doing

and He came by last night right after you left

my life in ruins

When I don't get what I want

the spoiled child inside breaks down

kicking, screaming, preying and dreaming

for a love lost and found

I wish we never, I wish we never

I wish we never met

'cause now I've got my heart set on you

Humiliation asked me out last night

I had nothing else to do

So we took a cab to loopy drunk, had conversations

I couldn't get through

and another stranger's eyes

were trying desperately to meet mine

but i looked away, tabs to pay, lies to say....

like, "how are you?" oh, "i'm doin fine.... but i ...."

I wish we never, I wish we never

I wish we never met

'cause now i've got my heart set on you

and i don't get what i want

from another stranger's eyes

and i don't get what i want

from another strangers eyes

i wish we never, i wish we never

i wish we never met

cause now i've got my heart set on you

without you

without you

i barely make it through

each bleeding night

what you used to do

Mandy,

you used to answer
when i would call
you used to catch me
when i would fall

you used to listen
and try to understand
when i was scared
you held my hand

you comforted me
all the times when i'd cry
you saved my life
when i wanted to die

whenever i thought
there was no one there
you used to remind me
that you really did care

when things got real bad
and i just wanted out
you used to remind me
of things i cared about

you used to help
turn things from wrong to right
and i sure could use
what you used to do
tonight

love always,
kathrynn

i love you

i love you

with every piece

of my shattered heart

i'll bleed

and if i bleed, i'll bleed

knowing you don't care

and if i sleep, i'll dream of you

but wake without you there

less painful

if you shot me now

and i bled to death

it would probably be less painful

than how you've already killed me inside

sign your name

take this razor blade

and sign your name across my wrist

so everyone will know

who left me like this

inconvenient

i'm sorry

that my life is such an inconvenience

for you

- -

BUT

believe me

it's an inconvenience

for me too

i hope u think of me

when you cry

i hope you think of all the pain you've caused me

. . . .

when you sleep

and have nightmares

i hope you think of how i can't sleep

. . . .

but most of all-

. . . .

whenever you bleed

i hope you'll always think of me

and how my blood will never stop pouring

does it?

does it hurt?

. .

when you think about me

and how broken i am??

Laugh

as i slit my wrists

for the last time..

. .

all i can see is you..

. .

and you're laughing

your head off

i don't know why..

i don't know why i love you

i know it isn't right

i don't know why i try

things never end up alright

Poured My Heart Out

would it bother you

if i were to die?

would you come to my funeral

or just walk by??

. .

you cause me much pain

deep down in my soul

it's so overwhelming

to the point i can't control

All She Wrote

Something's wrong with your mind
It won't think of me anymore
Was it all a waste of time
Tell me why was I such a chore
Broken glass lies empty
Cut my voice so I can't say
* * * *
I can't explain
What it's like not knowing
if I'll ever cross your mind
* * * * * *
Sleep through the day
Fight with the night
Seven a.m. and the tv is white
Covered in snow
I never knew that hell could get so cold
* * * * * * * *
Something's wrong with your mind
It won't think of me anymore
Was it all a waste of time

i hope you know

i wish you could see
what you've done to my heart
you ripped it out and stepped on it
you tore my life apart..
. . . . . .
you've been so cold and silent
through all my broken dreams
you slit my wrists and left me here
ignoring all my screams..
. . . . . .
i hope you know i still love you
even after everything you've done
for all the times you broke me
i hope you know you won

too late

i didn't know how to take it

tried to forget and move on

but it was too late for that

part of my heart was gone

i feel pain..

you've caused me so much hurt
even as i write this i feel pain
i cry my tears
and i bleed in vain

cant you see??

i'm sorry i can't be
everything you want me to be
can't you see it's hard enough
just admitting this is me??
. . . . . .
i'm sorry that i cry all night
i'm sorry that i worry
i'm sorry for what happened
can't you see i'm sorry??

never

i'm never gonna be good enough for you..

i can't pretend that i'm alright....

i miss..

i miss talking together

i miss calling on the phone

i miss the billion texts

i miss my second home

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

i miss our stupid jokes

i miss the things we used to do

i really miss your son

but, most of all, i just miss you

im sorry..

i'm sorry that i hurt you
it's something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through-
i wish that i could take it all away

i thought..

all along i thought you would be there

to let me know i'm not alone

but in fact that's exactly what i always was

and always will be

if only....

if only you still cared

i'm so tired of being alone

just wait

just wait

one day,

when you look at me

lying in my coffin

. . . .

the hardest part

will be seeing your name

carved into my arm

sick

my tears cry for you

my blood calls your name

my heart yearns for your love

but my soul is sick of this game

have you ever??

have you ever been in a situation

where the best thing you could do

was the hardest thing you've ever done?

. . . . . .

but you try to do what's right...?

Predictable..

now, everywhere i go

everyone i meet

everyone i care about

they all want to know why i'm so broken

~ ~

why i'm so cold

why i'm so hard inside

why am i scared??

what am i afraid of??

~ ~

i don't even know

this story's never had an end

i've been searching

i've been hoping

i've been dreaming you would come back

but i know the ending of this story

and you're never coming back

never....

~ ~

everywhere i go, for the rest of my life

everyone i love

everyone i care about

they're all gonna wanna know whats wrong with me

and i know what it is

~ ~

what it is is right now

(and, the past year and a half..)

your reaction

i killed myself

just to see your reaction

. . . .

the last thing

that passed through my mind

as i slowly faded away

. . . .

was a smile

nothing

**no words**

**no quote**

**no poem**

could ever express

how much i miss being with you

M A N D Y

the scars on my arm

spell out your name

trying

i'm trying really hard

not to cry over you

. .

because every tear

is just another reminder

of how i don't know

how to let you go..

time heals??

people say that only time can heal when you're grieving....

. .

well, i think that's Bull Shit

. .

time doesn't heal

you just learn to deal with the pain

which hurts more?

i don't know which hurts more..

. .

thinking i should hate you

or

knowing that i don't..

cut

with this knife

i'll cut out the part of me

that cares for you..

i cant..

things you did, i knew were wrong

but i needed you, so i played along

i can't get over you and just move on

i'm not like you, i'm not that strong

which to bury, us or the hatchet

i think you know what i'm getting at

i find it so upsetting that

the memories that you select

you keep the bad but the good you just forget

. .

i can't believe this happened

. . . .

no, i don't hate you

don't want to fight you

know i'll always love you

but right now i just don't like you

cause you took this too far

. . . . . .

this didn't turn out the way i thought it would at all

you blame me

but some of this is still your fault

. . . . . . . .

i tried to move you,

but you just wouldnt budge

i tried to hold your hand

but you'd rather hold your grudge

i so hate consequences

i so hate consequences

and running from you

is what my best defense is

. .

cause i know that i let you down,

and i don't want to deal with that

Gone

you're gone

and it's clear

i was never good enough

for you

Hate

if i were you

i'd fucking hate me too

i understand

i understand your decision

i really do

i understood it even at the time

. .

but that doesn't make it hurt any less

what i meant

what i really meant to say

is im sorry for the way i am

i never meant to be so cold

i know

i know

one day

you're gonna love me

like i've loved you

. .

i know

one day

you're gonna miss me

like i've missed you

. .

i know

one day

you're gonna want me back

but i won't want you anymore

finally

maybe

once you find out im dead

you'll finally realize

what you did to me

im sorry

im sorry that you know me

im polluting your "perfect" life

im sorry that you had to see

me struggle with the knife

im sorry i disgust you

with the blood running down my wrist

but dont worry, i wont be sorry anymore

for soon i will cease to exist

forget

i'm only hoping

that as time goes by,

you can forget....

what more??

it's all my fault

i'm sorry for everything

what more do you want from me??

if i died..

if i died,

would you cry or would you laugh??

if i died,

would you even care??

i think not....

memories live

** the memories of someone you have loved and lost, **

** will only die if you stop thinking about them **

** and stop laughing about the good times gone. **

*i'll never forget*

pour out

as i sit here, slicing my wrists open

i'm hoping that all the love i have for you

will pour out through the open wounds....

you never knew

i'm giving up on you

and, the worst part is....

- you never even knew i was trying

sometimes

sometimes,

when i'm alone,

i hear your voice

.

sometimes,

when i'm alone,

i wanna die

never know....

so read these words, and shed a tear

i've become so broken, year after year

i needed you to hold my hand but you let go

could i have made it? guess we'll never know..

if..

if i died tonight, would you cry?

would you regret the past year?

what if tonight is my last?

when

when i needed you the most

and couldnt help but cry

i reached out my hand

but you left me to die

never

i've hurt so much

i've cried for far too long

but i see it now

we never belonged

kills

your ignorance hurts me

your silence kills me

lost

think of the times i have welcomed you to my home

traveled to be there when you were sad and alone

let you have what you needed, when i needed my own

you would never even ask let alone repay a loan

. . . .

because as a friend, thats just who i am

i will give my friends everything i possibly can

i always listened and tried to understand

and never failed to lend a helping hand

. . . .

but Mandy, you decided to walk out on me

and now our friendship will cease to be

but one of these days you will finally see

how good a friend you lost in me

will you?

if i die tonight . .

will you cry tomorrow??

breathe

it hurts to breathe

because every breath

proves that i can live without you

. .

and,

obviously,

i can't

cannot

the painter cannot see without eyes

. .

the musician cannot hear without ears

. .

and i cannot love without the heart you stole from me

why?

why does the sun go on shining?

why does the sea rush to shore?

don't they know

it's the end of the world?

cause you don't love me anymore

. . . . . . . .

why do the birds go on singing?

why do these eyes of mine cry?

don't they know

it's the end of the world?

it ended when you said good-bye

who?

who will i run to??

who will i turn to??

now that you've left me behind,

who will dry my tears??

not asleep

i keep thinking

this is all just a

bad dream. . . .

and any minute now,

i'm sure to wake up

screaming. .

. .

but then i realize

I AM NOT ASLEEP

. .

things will never be ok

. .

'happily ever after' doesn't

happen in real life

THIS IS 4 KYLE

how come you have

enough time to go out

and make other people

fall in love with you,

but you don't have

enough time to pay

attention to the one

who already does??

THIS IS 4 KYLE

. . . . . . . .

-> i found this on the internet

last night. including that last line.

i thought of you immediately and

knew you had to read it.

spend some time with him, do something fun,

that boy loves you A LOT.

give him a hug for me, k??

thanks....

how is that fair??

i loved you

more than myself

but since you've left me

i hate myself

more than you

. .

how is that fair??

6 feet under

i'd like to take a gun

and put it to my head

then pull the trigger

so i'd be dead

then i'd never have to worry

never have to feel the pain

of waiting for a sorry

that won't ever come

death is like a darkness

then again, it's my only light

and i'd go without a fight

because 6 feet under seems peaceful

where my feelings wouldn't matter

(not like they do anyway..)

and under the ground

is where i'll stay

never to bother you again

don't

fearful tears are running down

. .

the pain you've laid, don't speak a sound

. .

don't take my heart, away from me

. .

and they think i fell down

again

madness

"catch me as i fall"

say you're here, and it's all over now..

. .

speaking into the atmosphere

no one's here and i fall into myself

this truth drives me into madness

nowhere

crying will wash the blood

off my torn wrists

. .

i've bruised and bled for you,

and still, it gets me nowhere

listen

are you listening?

. .

can you hear me??

. .

have you forgotten???

blame

i am the only one

to blame for this . . . .

. .

somehow it all adds up the same

foolish

so cut below the surface

and try hard not to notice

that i could be so foolish

thinking i'm alright

i've got no one to hold me

i've got no one to carry

everything inside of me

that i won't let them see

I need you now

Mandy, i need you now
please take me by the hand
stand by me in my hour of need
take time to understand

take my hand, please Mandy
and lead me from this place
chase away my doubts and fears
wipe the tears from off my face

Mandy, i cannot stand alone
i need your hand to hold
the warmth of your gentle touch
in my world that's grown so cold

please, be a friend to me
and hold me day by day
cause with your loving hand in mine
i know we'll find the way

*by: Becky Turner

Bottled

Bottled up inside
are the words i never said
the feelings that i hide
the lines you never read

you can see it in my eyes
read it on my face
trapped inside are lies
of a past i can't replace

with memories that linger
won't seem to go away
why can't i be happier?
today's a brand new day

yesterdays are over
even though the hurting's not
nothing lasts forever
i must cherish what i've got

don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won

the hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear overnight
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright

no more wishing for the past
it wasn't meant to be
it didn't seem to last
so i'll have to set you free

*by: Melissa Collette

change

"one minute there's a whole life

entwined with yours,

and the next, just a space

and scattered clues."

Let That Be Enough

*switchfoot,

i wish i had what i needed

to be on my own

cause i'm feeling defeated

and i'm feeling alone

and it all seems so helpless

and i have no plans

i'm a plane in the sunset

with nowhere to land

and all i see

it could never make me happy

and all my sand castles

spent their time collapsing

let me know that you hear me

let me know your touch

let me know that you love me

let that be enough

it's my birthday tomorrow

no one here could know

i was born this thursday

21 years ago

and i feel stuck

watching history repeating

yeah, who am i?

just a kid who knows he's needy

let me know that you hear me

let me know your touch

let me know that you love me

and let that be enough

never forget

i'll never forget you

i'll never let you out of my heart

i'll hold on to the memories

takes time

i had it all

but i let it slip away

now i wander around

feeling down and cold

trying to believe that you're gone

. .

love takes time

to heal when you're hurting

i can't escape the pain inside

love takes time

i don't wanna be here alone

cry

sitting in the dark without you

how am i supposed to make it through the night?

slowly fall apart without you

cry away the hours

till the morning light

Somebody Stand By Me

*Faith Hill & Sheryl Crow

it's quiet here tonight
there's a light burning far away
it burns in my heart
in the rain, in the dark
this girl's gonna have her day

i've been this alone for so long
i'm beginning to wonder why
i stand in one place
different name, different face
but no one's gonna see me
break down and cry

wont somebody stand by me?
stand by me, just one time??

Lord, i don't understand
what's slipping through these hands
you think by now i'd know
when to let go
here i am
won't somebody stand by me?

i'm not bending tonight
but i'm twisted and turned, and broken down
i'm starting to know the sound
of nothing
and no one
and yet everything

well, if God's here tonight
-are you here tonight?
maybe you could grab me up
Lord, stand me on my feet
Give me strength and set me free
Cause i'm not giving in
Until I've had enough

won't somebody stand by me
stand by me just one time
i don't understand
what's slipping through these hands
you'd think by now
i'd know when to let go
here i am
and i'm throwing down
my one last hope
here i am
won't somebody stand by me

won't somebody stand by me
here i am
won't somebody stand by me

i don't understand
what's slipping through these hands
you'd think by now i'd know
when to let go
here i am
and i'm throwing down my one last hope
here i am
won't sombody stand by me

won't somebody stand by me
here i am
stand by me
just one time
somebody stand by me

the hard way

if i could just old on . . . .

if i could just be strong . . . .

. .

i keep living

and loving

and learning

the hard way

you're the hardest lesson of my life

. .

i keep living

and loving

and learning

the hard way

someday, maybe i'll get it right

over?

i thought it was over

we said our good-byes

but i can't go a day

without your face

going through my mind

in fact not a single minute

passes without you in it

your face, your voice

memories of you

are with me all of the time

you've put me behind

no matter how i try

i can't do the same

i try to find the bright side

but everywhere i look

everywhere i turn

you're all i see

falling

don't know what to say

never meant to feel this way

. .

what can i do to make it right?

i'm falling so hard, so fast this time..

It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing

*Shania Twain,

hope life's been good to you
since you've been gone
i'm doing fine now
i've finally moved on

it's not so bad
i'm not that sad

i'm not surprised
just how well i've survived
i'm over the worst
and i feel so alive

i can't complain
i'm free again

and it only hurts when i'm breathing
my heart only breaks when it's beating
my dreams only die when i'm dreaming
so i hold my breath
to forget

don't think i'm lying around
crying at night
there's no need to worry
i'm really alright
i've never looked back
as a matter of fact

and it only hurts when i'm breathing
my heart only breaks when it's beating
my dreams only die when i'm dreaming
so i hold my breath
to forget

it only hurts when i breath. . . .

shouldn't

loving you

isn't really something i should do

i shouldn't wanna spend

my time with tou

i should try to be strong

i should try to run

but i just can't seem to

cause everytime i run

you're the one i run to

Unbreakable Heart

*Jessica Andrews,

an empty house
a broken fairy tale
a hollow girl
with empty arms
from an angels tears
God made the stars
why can't He make me
an unbreakable heart?

in my blue world
you shone like heaven's fire
and left me crying
in the dark
how could anyone
be so hard?
did you think i had
an unbreakable heart?

-nobody has an unbreakable heart
-God makes everything but unbreakable hearts

Remember Me This Way

*from casper the friendly ghost,

every now and then
we find a special friend
who never lets us down

who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend that i've found

i know you can't stay
but part of you will
never, ever go away
your heart will stay

i'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come grue
that life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind

if you lose your way
think back on yesterday
remember me this way

i don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me
no matter where i go

and i know you'll be there
for evermore, a part of me
i'll always care

i'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
that life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind

if you lose your way
think back on yesterday
remember me this way